Não cansei de ser sexy, cansei de ser baunilha.
Cansei de ser baunilha. Na boa, não tenho explicações. Mas, as pessoas baunilhas, via de regra, são cheias de frescura. Mas, sei bem que em todos os meios, as pessoas são cheias de frescuras. Se eu fosse assexuado (e o mundo ia perder uma grande parcela de prazer, se eu fosse), não me sentiria assim tão angustiado pela busca de alguém para gostar.
O fato é que busco exatemente isso: alguém pra gostar. Não me entende mal, eu não o tipo de sujeito que fica sem companhia, vocês bem sabem. Mas, se esta sensação tem um nome, é system overheating. Too much energy. Agora que eu redescobri o meu manancial, me sinto feito um Niagara.
Mas chega de emisses.
Li um treco que vai bem pelo que eu estava falando no post anterior, e pra variar, é num livro de ficção. O nome da peça é Marauders of GOR, do John norman. Lá pelas tantas, quando o personagem principal está refletindo sobre a vida, o universo e tudo o mais, ele fala o seguinte:
I wondered how men should live. In my chair, I had thought long on such matters.
I knew only that I did not know the answer to this question. Yet it is an important question, is it not? Many wise men give wise answers to this question, and yet they do not agree among themselves.
Only the simple, the fools, the unreflective, the ignorant, know the answer to this question.
Perhaps to a question this profound, the answer cannot be known. Perhaps it is a question too deep to be answered. Yet we do know there are false answers to such a question. This suggests that there may be a true answer, for how can there be falsity without truth?
One thing seems clear to me, that a morality which produces guilt and self-torture, which results in anxiety and agony, which shortens lifespans, cannot be the answer.
But what is not mistaken?
The Goreans have very different notions of morality from those of Earth.
Yet who is to say who is the more correct?
I envy sometimes the simplicities of those of Earth, and those of Gor, who, creatures of their conditioning, are untroubled by such matters, but I would not be s either of them. If either should be correct, it is for them no more than a lucky coincidence. They would have fallen into truth, but to take truth for granted, is not to know it. Truth not won is not possessed. We are not entitled to truths for which we have not fought.
Do we not know learn by living, as we learn to speak by speaking, to paint by painting, to build by building?
Those who best know how to live, sometimes it seems to me, are those least likely to be articulate in such skills. It is not that they have not learned, but, having learned, they find they cannot tell what they know, for only words can be told, and what is learned in living is more than words, other than words beyond words. We can say, “This building is beautiful,” but we do not learn the beauty of the building from the words; the building it is which teaches us its beauty; and how can one speak the beauty of the building, as it is? Does one say it has so many pillars, that it has a roof of a certain type, and such? Can one simply say. “The building is beautiful?” Yes, one can say that but what one learns when one sees the beauty of the building cannot be spoken; it is not words; it is the buildings beauty.
The morality of Earth, from the Gorean point of view, is a morality which would be viewed as more appropriate to slaves than free men. It would be seen in terms of the envy and resentment of inferiors for their superiors. It lays great stress on equalities and being humble and being pleasant and avoiding friction and being ingratiating and small. It is a morality in the best interest of slaves, who would be only too eager to be regarded as the equals of others. We are all the same. That is the hope of slaves; that is what it is in their best interests to convince others of. The Gorean morality on the other hand is more one of inequalities, based on the assumption that individuals are not the same, but quite different in many ways. It might be said to be, though this is oversimple, a morality of masters. Guilt is almost unknown in Gorean morality, though shame and anger are not. Many Earth moralities encourage resignation and accommodation: Gorean morality is bent more towards conquest and defiance; many Earth moralities encourage tenderness, pity and gentleness, sweetness; Gorean morality encourages honor, courage, hardness and strength. To Gorean morality, many Earth moralities might ask.” Why so hard?’. To these Earth moralities, the Gorean ethos might ask, “Why so soft?’
Afora a óbvia relação com os meus gostos, neste texto, Cabot fala que não se pode apreender sobre a beleza de alguma coisa somente com palavras. É o típico exemplo da construção relacional de que eu falava no post anterior. Mas não quero falar sobre isso
Bom, pros meus dois leitores, estou fazendo uma enquete:
Decidi que posso escrever com propriedade sobre qualquer coisa. Então, me sugiram um tópico, que eu vou falar sobre ele. Qualquer um.